In all my excitement for Fall Ball tomorrow night I started watching videos and it reminded me of Warped Tour and how I needed to get my ass moving and write about it because man it was AMAZING. It was so absolutely amazing. It was. Without a doubt.

It's funny to look back to like May when I was looking at the line-up and was just not that excited because in the end well this was definitley the best Warped too I've been too - yet.

We took caltrain there from Belmont and well that was a new experience. We almost ended up riding the train the wrong way. We finally figured it out thanks to an indian woman. Thank god for her actually, without her help we would have completely missed are stop. We finally got to Mountain View and I had printed all these complicated bus routes to get to the venue but we saw some other kids, two girls, who were going to warped tour and we split a cab. In attendence: Jessica, Amethyst, and Me. Pobre Dulce. (haha that's all spanish).

Upon arrival we had to buy are tickets and then we got in line - we stood with the 2 girls who we shared a cab with and chatted with them. ANd then... the bands started coming. Struggling band after struggling band came and begged for us to buy their cds. The majority of which I will not listen too, and every time you cannot say no. It was hell. I ended up buying all the wrong cds. Got a bunch of signed stuff - hey maybe one day one of them will be famous and it'll be worth something.... THose who pestered the most, were the most annoying, but they were persistant and in the end one of us bought their stuff, even though in the end you would have preferred to buy something from a much nicer less annoying band member, but that's just how life works.

 

We entered and right away we saw This Providence. We took some pictures. Gavin got stung by a bee. I got a cd and had them all sign it. Then we wandered around attempting to find the set list. That took a while...we almost bought one.

Oh this year we discovered a new, very good, thing. The lockers. Yes they saved my back, helped me enjoy moshing more, and gave us a place to stack all our stolen posters.

First up was....

CASH CASH: 
They were playing the main stage in the venue, which was this stage split into two. There was a small general admission area and behind rows and rows of chairs. I was always in the pit, Amethyst was also sitting, and Jessica went back and forth. We got there just in time to hear Party in Your Bedroom. I got as close as I could and danced and sung my heart out. It's funny how music just brings me alive, it's my anti-shy. I can dance and shake my hips and scream at the top of my lungs and idgaf about other people, but in public it's just umm no please leave me alone.

We stayed in the amphitheater...well at least we watched the next band in the same area, but I get this feeling that we left and wandered around trying to pinpoint the different stages only to return and see...

I SET MY FRIENDS ON FIRE:
It was pretty fun, we only stayed for a couple of songs. Amethyst and Jessica were up in the bleachers being lame party poopers.

After ISMFON we turned to the stage next to it to watch...
 

VALENCIA:
I bought their cd for $2, that was by far the best buy, and one of the only cds I bought in line without regretting buying it. Plus it was cheap :) a relief to my pocket.

These two stages by far got the most action in this day, well by me. I think.. i didn't actually count, I was at ernie ball quite a lot.

SING IT LOUD:
I'm not sure why I have such a great love for this band. They are just the perfect amount of pop. Always enjoyable, and just good times. I was determined to see them in hopes of being able to crowd surf because last time it was like the perfect set up for me, but it wasn't the right crowd for it. I'm not sure what determines this, but it wasn't. Pat kept dissing Fresno, which is were they were the day before. Boo Fresno! I later met up with SIL at the merch tent (except for pat and nate) and had them sign my cd booklet.

We then returned to one of the amphitheater stages to catch a glimpse of....

INNERPARTYSYSTEM:
and boy was I surprised by the lead singer. Very surprised. He wasn't at all what I imagined him to look like - he had a very Patrick Stump look to him. Polo, chubby, hat, no super skinny jeans. It was surpring, not a bad one just a pleasent shock. The keyboardist was amusing. I wish I had a video of him. He was so into it, I love it when people are like that. Just going crazy at that keyboard.

LOVEHATEHERO:
I didn't really know any of their songs, I ended up listening to a whole lot of new music in this Warped Tour, whereas in SF it was more omg we have to go see them NOW and you didn't really have enough time to check out the other acts. I like that I get to go to two warped tours, you just have so much more time to enjoy more, and if you weren't able to see one band you could check 'em later.  The lead singer of LOVEHATEHERO was very familiar. He looked like younger adam lazarra of Taking Back Sunday. aka Adam Lasagna. There was also one guy in it who looked like he was in Escape the Fate.


We left the amphitheater and wondering around, probably looking at booths. The details are blurry, We ended up watching some smaller bands. I think it was PACIFIC LIGHTS and SINGLE FILE.

Then we wandered around more. At this point we started to steal posters and we sat down for a while relaxing our legs. One thing about music is that unlike Amethyst, who gets easily tired, in fact she's just tired of the music scene. I get excited by music. I get a giant adrenaline rush and I'm like a bucket, no, what's bigger then a bucket? A DOLLOP ( I know that's not bigger, I just wanted to use the word) of energy. I'm like on speed. Well no. But on candy (not that I ever actually get hyper from that stuff).

[continued on 11/08/09 - I have no idea what I meant earlier, by comparing myself to a bucket. Last week was Halloween pretty good :) Maybe I'll write about it eventually... Mb. Spent the weekend putting up curtains and organizing my poster wall. School has been chaotic, hopefully things will calm down. I'm stressed out, and I've noticed my acne has increased, this is not appreciated. Next Friday Tprov show]

WE THE KINGS:
Before WTK we chilled on the sidelines. Sat and rested. Then Jessica and I went into the crowd, Amethyst rested on the side. We stayed for a couple of songs. I never knew how crude this guy was. He started talking about the hole in his pants, it was pretty sizey (he showed us, it was a crotch hole. Then he sang a song about a girl, and continued with the comments about how the hole was growing because of us and some other stuff. It got pretty ...well almost crossed the line.

YOU ME AT SIX:
We then walked through the booths, and paused to watch You Me At Six. They were pretty good. Played a cover of lady gaga's poker face. Had pretty cool shirts. I still can't decide if I like his hair or not.

Then Amethyst and I went off on our own and wandered through the booths. We bought merch and ran into Halvo. We got a picture with his mouth closed! Pretty amazing, it looked awkward, like someone jammed it shut at the last minute. This was during our extreme poster stealing time. When we were walking back to the ladder, I was probably talking about how much the 'free hugs' people annoy me. This guy jumps out in front of me, I screamed so loud. It was hilarious. He was trying to sell his bands cds, and honestly if i had any money left I would have bought his, instead of those crappy cds (VENETIA AFFAIR) while I was waiting outside in line. I wish I could remember the name, so I could at least look them up. But oh well, all i remember is that it was a punk band, and he had a blue mohawk.

EVERY AVENUE:
I saw a little of them, I think I stayed for a song, or a half?
I was in a rush to see...

AIDEN:








 

I have severely fallen behind in my keeping up with this lj, but I must continue. Maybe it would be more interesting if I just didn't write about fairly historic events, but those events are filled with great memories, and sometimes the brain fails you. So looking back things I must write about are:
- Aruba
- Warped Tour Mountain View
- San Diego Local Show

I'm not sure what order I will put them in (probably not the order it occured) but I swear I will get to it. Starting now. Well realtively soon I'll just recap a little on more present issues to get my fingers flowing.


Today I got a car :)
I have yet to see it though.

Lately I've also been having some pretty intense conversations with Dulce, and I'm not sure how I feel about them yet. (Concerning: life, drugs, parties, books, love, pressure)

Btw all of the above (minus pressure, life, and books) I do not have.

Let's see what else. It is October :)
I feel like this is going to be a very fun month.
Fall Ball is in 6 days and I'm very excited. We're also planning to do the corn maze. I do have PSAT's though. And possibly there will be a horror fest at Amethyst's house. I really hope so.

Oh this past weekend on Saturday I went to the San Francisco, it was completely packed. So many things were going on, including Lovefest or I mean Lovevolution, as it is now called. I saw so many people (inluding a good amount from Albany) a lot of them were scarcely dressed, and I felt like the only teenager in SF not there. It looks like fun, and even though I know that it's like a crazy outdoor rave filled with drugs and alcohol I kinda really want to go next year.

Now on to more historic times:

SAN DIEGO LOCAL SHOW:

It was my first 'real' local show ever, and it was in San Diego at the Epicentre. I was originally planning to go there to see Kill Paradise, Romance on a Rocketship, and a few more bands that I just can't remember, but they were local (well majority). They cancelled last minute though, and I was persistant and still attended.

It was very weird to be alone at a local show, especially in the beginning. First of all when I paid ($5) I paid directly to the band (I chose The Ready Aim Fire), and that was surprising. Once inside there was a couple kids standing loosely around the stage, and most were lounging on scattered sofas in the back of the room.

It was very awkward to be standing alone. I basically fiddled with my phone standing close, but not too close, to the stage.

I got their a bit late and this guy named Remy Cox was playing.

Next came The Ready Aim Fire. I knew a couple of their songs, but only the newer ones, and the show was made up of soley older ones. It was entertaining to watch, and I enjoyed their sound. During their set, these kids, specifically this one boy, who i think had an ATTACK! ATTACK! shirt on started doing this crazy dance. It was pretty awesome to watch. It was like limbs flying everywhere. I don't even know how to describe it, but it was very intriguing. It was kind of like the dance in The Breakfast Club when everyone's high except on speed. Or like the jive. I don't even know. A MUCH better alternative to today's dance 'freaking' if a dance it what you can consider it. More like sex with clothes on (however minimal).

After was this electronica band, or more specifically guy, called Talk Cute! I knew a couple of his stuff because it was pretty catchy and it was just a little bit annoying but it had good beats. He sang, by this time I was leaning against the stage, and it was like the fans for the specific band would come and go to the stage from the sitting area. I moved my head a bit, without noticing, becaue it's impossible not to move to electronica music.

Then came.... The Silent Armada (I seriously don't even know how I'm remebering these band names), and they had such great energy on stage. It was insane. I wish I had written this closer to the date so I could write about it, and have the energy come across more easily. They danced all around, and it was surprising because they didn't actually look like people who'd be in a band. They shimmied around. The one guy in front of me, black guy, had guitar strap issues. It was good though. There was one particulary cute guy in the band, the only guy in it who actually looked like he would be in a band. I think there was something wrong with the sound during this because I could barely hear the main guy. During this band the lazy sofa bummers got up and crowded around.

During this set Remy Cox came and stood next to me and helped with glasses and strap issues. Also I noticed A Dull Science doing some crazy warm-ups off to the side. I never knew dry humping each other would help them play music better. But hey whatever rocks their boat.

Last, but not least, not at all, was A Dull Science ( I had to look that name up, and darn it I was on a role too!). They had an incedible amount of energy. It was just fascinating to watch. The only I think about them was that when I listened to them they remotely like Blink 182. I didn't get bored once during this, and I remember turning around during the set and seeing just  a whole line of guys air guitaring. I couldn't help but crack up at that. They also had this setlist, pretty hilarious, that had been edited to be R-rated. Songs like spineless became cockless. I know I have a picture of it somewhere. There was also a four year old in the crowd, on the shoulders of some girl. I wonder what my life would be like if that was me....

I left immediatley afterwards to avoid even more awkward situations.

What do you want to be when you grow up?

I'm coming to realize that the 'when you grow up' part of that question hardly applies anymore. Yet I have grown no closer to knowing what I want to be. If anything maybe I have regressed.
When you're young you don't know as much as you do now and it's so easy to say, with confidence, your dreams. It usually involved the Martin Luther king speech 'i have a dream'
It was easy. When I grow up I want to be a veterinarian. A doctor, a teacher, the ice cream man.
Now, I am grown up (well almost), and I want to be......

Happy.

But what job makes me happy?

It's scary not knowing what you want to be. I'm in my junior year and college is so close-I can taste it (theoretically).

Hopefully in the coming years I will find what I want to be, and in the meantime continue growing as a person and learning more about myself.

An end note: this conversation was brought on by collegeboard.com and I was looking at all the stats of the uc's and I am pretty sure I can get in. I can do it. But then after realizing I can do it, it became do what. What am I working so hard for?

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I was wasting time on fbr_trash and was going through a thread on what people hate and about 45% of I was omg iawtc! so it inspired me to rant about all the things I hate.

Starting off with- typing on this iPhone is a pain in the ass!

People who like you and are bocce to you one day and the next completely ignore you.

People who say things are so easy. Especially when it comes to math. I'm sorry if I don't get it so please shut up about how easy it is.

Third wheel. Ie sitting on a couch with a couple and they start to make out and it's like wth am I supposed to do! why am I even here!

People who keep saying things suck and how boring it is. Especially when their rich kids and don't appreciate anything. Ie. See my cousin kylerose on vacation in Aruba.

People who say they don't like top 40s music but then their iPod is full of it.

People who always feel the need to comment that they liked them before. I am such a hypocrite sometimes. But seriously no one cares.

People who like bands just becase people in it are hot... I agree it's a nice bonus but is that the only reason?

People who think they're indie. And all cool and untouchable.

Not knowing how to get along with people. I am just terrible at that stuff.

When you meet new people but no one bothers to introduce you or even acknowledge your existence so you stand around all awkward.

When you find the item you were looking for after you needed it.

People who just constantly talk crap about other people.

People who curse because they think it's cool or they think they're supposed too but realy it just sounds bad and they're trying to hard. Especially when every three words is a curse.

When you don't want to drive people around because you don't feel comfortable with driving yet and they call you some version of a weenie for not bringing you places. I'm sorry but it's for your own good!

People who just don't understand.

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When I Grow Up I Want To Be Famous

 

            I heard the cover of that song by Mayday Parade a couple hours ago, and now it’s in my head and it got me thinking, well no actually it didn’t, but I started thinking about being old and then the song came to me.

            The whole point of me writing right now is not me wanting to grow and be famous, but if I were to write about that, I wouldn’t mind. It doesn’t seem so terrible to be famous, but if I started talking about that now I’d get so off topic I’d never be able to relate it back to my original thoughts.

            I feel like what I’m thinking right now is very philosophic, but at the moment I can’t find a way to word it properly so that it might come off in a philosophic way. If I ever had to write an essay about it, I’m sure it would be pretty good, but this is just a blog, a casual blog. Just to prove how casual it is, I don’t use spell check and I have a million run-on sentences.

            When you’re young you dream, big and small, but you dream. I dream of living in my own apartment with its checkered floor bathroom and retro/vintage design, and of having an amazing shoe collection. Not necessarily an overpriced one, but one with a little bit of everything. Just day dreams of falling in love and growing up, having kids, and well just being happy. It reminds me so much of Owl City songs. If I could play music right now I’d turn him on and analyze some lyrics.

            Anyway all this dreaming got me thinking, that when you’re young you dream and you make those dreams come true, but when you’re old you can’t do much with your life. You’re retired (hopefully), you’re possibly sick or at least aged and can’t do everything you could before, and so now you really have all this time to dream, but instead of dream. When I’m old I’d like to be able to look back on my life and be satisfied with everything I’ve done.

            I don’t want to have to dream about how I’m going to decorate my place or do something amazing, I want to look back and be able to think about how great my life was, how I got to decorate my place and do something amazing. Reminisce on my worldly adventures. As a very excellent show (sarcasm) once said, “The only thing you can do is live your life.” (Secret Life of the American Teenager).

 

11:06pm July 30, 2009^

WARPED TOUR ’09!!! SAN FRANCISCO!!! WHOOOOO!!!

 

That should be yelled, in the spirit of warped tour. June 27, 2009 at Pier 30/32. If anything a hot, chaotic, amazing day.

 

It is July 29, 2009 at 12:29 pm and I am listening to Owl City’s new album Ocean Eyes J (there’s that smiley again).

 

Attendees: Dulce, Jessica, Amethyst, and me.

 

Dulce and I met up at Jessica’s house and took Bart to the city.

 Skipping past all the merchandise sellers and homeless with kittens to the entry gates. Where a lost and confused Asian family, mother, father, and young boy, waited in the line to get into warped. They even went past security. This isn’t a cruise, you don’t get in every line you see. They had no idea what they were getting into. I’m surprised they didn’t take notice of all the insane teenagers going in and turn the other direction.

 

We noted the bands down, and had already missed The White Tie Affair and so we headed over to see Escape the Fate, or so we thought.

 

So we head over to a stage, possibly Smart Punk. Stages well let’s just forget which stages the bands were on. I think small and big suffice.

 

DANCEGAVINDANCE:

Escape the Fate wasn’t set to play for a while, but next door, or well next stage, which was about five away featured dancegavindance. I knew like one song from them, but I liked them. They’re screamo, and lately I’ve been listening to a lot of screamo. I always thought they were a bigger band so I was surprised that they were on such a small stage. About half way through their set I ask some girl at the stage Escape the Fate is going to supposedly be at the girl says Big D and the Kids Table is playing there. Oops! Wrong stage. I’ve heard one song from them, steady riot, and I really like it, but I don’t know them that well and I’ve been dying to see Escape the Fate so off we go in search of Escape the Fate.

 

GALLOWS:

(July 29, 2009 10:39pm)

Playing before Escape the Fate was Gallows. I had never really heard them before, but I knew they were a punk band. It was pretty awesome to watch. First he was on stage, and then he was on the crowd, and then he got in the middle of everyone and had the people form a circle pit. It was my first time seeing one, and it was a pretty awesome experience. They opened up right in front of me and the people just ran around like crazy. If they did this in PE I might actually have fun, or want to run. The guy eventually made it back on stage. I believe he’s from the UK – England? I’m not sure, he talked about it though, and he had an accent. It was a fun show to watch. Afterwards the Gallows driver, who lost one of his glasses lens, came out and asked the crowd to look for it. People made sad attempts at looking and the guy just became really pissed off and kept yelling at the crowd. I felt pretty bad for him, he was seriously freaking out, but what glasses lens would have survived the multiple pits that went on. Eventually he came out into the crowd and searched, but no luck.

 

 

ESCAPE THE FATE:

 

While waiting for Escape the Fate, a punk band was playing on the stage next to it. I don’t know who it was, but it was an older large bald man who made a lot of crude comments about bjs. We listened to basically they’re whole set…and I still have no idea who they are.

 

From off to the side some person spotted a band member and this group of girls, real close to me, kept yelling out his name at the top of their lungs. “MAXX!!! WE LOVE YOU!!! MAXX! MAXXX!!! I LOVE YOU MAXX!” Omg they were annoying, and their voices were high pitched. If I were him, I would have been very scared. This one girl in front of me had short wispy hair, braces, and a lisp. She had this card deck for the band, and she had drawn every single card. It was actually amazing, her drawings looked so realistic, and they were just very well done. She had drawings of a few other bands too, like A skylit drive. We had a pretty good spot, second row, and they played a good set. Some new and some old. I really love old Escape the Fate, before the singers changed, so I’m glad they did. It was a pretty rough crowd, but manageable, until this one girl popped out of nowhere. This annoying blonde, she came approx. in the middle of the set, and she just kept elbowing me in the back, and then she’d put her hand on my head and she would push my head down, and she tried to wrap her legs around me so she could get in front. I was seriously getting sick of her. I didn’t budge though. I complained about her later and found out she had been doing the same thing to Dulce. It was overall a lot of fun, one of the best in the day.

 

 

 

BC13:

 

            After Escape the fate, I was disgustingly sweaty. I was soaked, and it wasn’t just mine. We didn’t really have any band that we were dying to see so we walked around and came upon the Brokencyde stage. I had never listened to them before, but I knew they were the male equivalent of Millionaires. There was a dancing man, in a pig costume, up on stage. The poor person must have been dying up there. We stood around watching them. Everyone was singing along to their very crude lyrics, but I guess it was amusing. ‘good time’ music. Sometime during this Jessica got separated from us. I think she went up closer because we were just standing around in the back. It took a while to find Jessica, but eventually we did and after that we FINALLY met up with Amethyst by a stage where TAT was playing. We also ran into Melissa and Jessica R. who attacked me with their hugs. I really must work on the hugging thing. I really didn’t know what to say to them and it was a good bit awkward, but then we moved on and walked around the merch tents. Buying posters and shirts, taking posters off the walls, and getting free stuff. Soon it was time for...

 

 

SING IT LOUD:

 

We had gotten their after the set started and Jessica and Amethyst had gone ahead. I was with Dulce, but then we got separated. Sing it Loud was a calm-ish crowd. It was pleasant. A few crowd surfers, but it wasn’t the rough kind and it made me want to do it. Really badly, but no one was around to hold my stuff. Maybe next time I will have enough guts to do it.

 

 

 

BREATHE CAROLINA:

 

We couldn’t find Amethyst and Jessica after Sing It Loud, and she had the list of bands with times and places, so we had no idea what was next. We tried to find them, and when that didn’t work I got desperate and realized BC was next. I was a bit annoyed at them because they didn’t pick up their phones and shouldn’t just disappear like that. Next time I’m going to have my own set list. I could not miss BC. So I borrowed a stage map from someone and then we found are way over there where Breathe Carolina was already playing. It was pretty crowded, and I weaved my way through. Dulce stayed behind, and we saw Jessica and Amethyst. Jessica came closer with me, but we still got separated, and apparently Dulce was off to the side, she ended up by a group of people getting high. I ended up at the very end of the dance pit. It’s impossible to not dance to BC. These two girls made a circle and recruited people around them to have a dance off. They’d grab these random guys and stick them in the middle. It was fun, but nothing like before. They played a bunch of new songs, which made me excited for Hello Fascination.

 

 

TV/TV:

 

After BC, we had a lot of spare time and so we went to the TV/TV stage and just sat along the side by the empty stage. Nobody was there yet, and the stage next to us was playing music. Eventually we got up and moved to the front. I was in the front row center, and they stayed front row, off to the side. They were exhausted and wanted to lean on the barriers. TV/TV was a pretty good show. It was comfortable, and they talked about their new EP special for Warped. So Afterwards we (minus dulce who left to see Aiden). While walking through the merch tents we stopped and saw..

 

 

 

 

AIDEN:

 

            I didn’t see dulce in the crowd, and I only stayed for one song – scavengers of the damned. I was on the move because I wanted to get to A day to remember. Will – the lead singer – has to be one of the scariest people I Have ever seen – he resembled a tattooed up wolverine. Jessica and Amethyst went ahead while I stayed. I later caught up with them at the TV/TV tent but didn’t want to wait in line so gave Ame..$5  to buy me a cd and get it signed. Then headed to ADTR.

 

 

A DAY TO REMEMBER:

 

By the time I got there it was already incredibly crowded, but I tried to join in, I was in the way back. Beside me was this group of kids, one of them who was tiny and looked about ten. As soon as the music started though this giant group of guys came pushing through, and guess who got pushed along with them. Me and that tiny ten year old boy. It looked like the boy was suffocating and the crowd was rough, people were scared for him. Eventually I got pushed even closer by more people and I no longer saw the boy, who looked like a brave one. I was pretty close, center, and the crowd was rough. I had my phone in my hand and had to hold on to it for dear life. I was getting pushed everywhere. Moving from side to side, mosh pits were constantly opening up around me. I almost fell several times, and other people did. I was barely on my feet, and it was a bit suffocating. Every once in a while I was able to jump up from around the tall people and get a glimpse of the band. Towards the end though, well the very last song I ended up at the side of the stage, where my view is seen below, and it was much calmer there. I was able to get out my camera, take a couple pictures, and see the band. After the set I didn’t move because next up was…

 

THE MAINE:

 

            I waited there for a while because of all the setting up time. Around me this group of girls were discussing their favorite artists, which included, how taylor swift was their idol, and some other very popular artists, and how their one friend learned the one song on the driver there. The Maine was a pretty big band at this point and attracted a pretty varying crowd. They played a good set. At one point this girl stuck her hand up in the air and her ring went flying off of it and down my shirt. It got caught in my bra. Awkward laughing moment there, but I got it out and she put it right back on her finger.

 

 

30h!3:

 

            Jessica and Dulce had left early for 30h!3 but I ran into Amethyst and her uncle and we wandered on over there. Taking the stairs to get to the other section was such a nuisance  because 50 kids would try to go down stairs that could only hold ten, and it took like 15 minutes. So we took the longer route, which in the end, probably saved us time. While taking that route we saw this one band that had a man in a cow costume performing, and later on this skinny older guy with this really very awesome velvet suit on. It looked pretty entertaining, but we were exhausted and kept going. Eventually we got to the main stage where 3oh!3 was playing, and man was it crowded. Amethyst and her Uncle sat at the end of it and I tried to weave my way through to get a little closer, but I was too tired and retreated to where they were lounging on the hot cement. I joined them, and stayed for like two songs. We left early, and decided to go over to the ARTM stage, so we’d get a good view.

 

 

 

 

SCARY KIDS SCARING KIDS:

 

Playing on the stage where ARTTM was about to play was Scary kids scaring kids. While walking there we grabbed whatever posters they had on the fence where bands placed them. I had to climb over a few families to get them, and they watched me with amused faces as I struggled to get the posters off. I ended up ripping the majority and leaving some. Scary Kids Scaring Kids have one of the coolest names I know, but I never really got into their music. I knew a couple songs, and I walked in and out of the end crowd getting free water and the Red Cross table. At the stage we ran into Melissa and Jessica R we had a failed attempt at a conversation, we couldn’t really hear each other and then they disappeared and went off on their own.

 

 

A ROCKET TO THE MOON:

 

We were front or second row, off to the side of the stage watching the band play. I enjoyed the set a lot. It was very comfortable and the mood was good. The crowd was relaxed and people just sang along. They really gained fame in the last couple of months so there was a pretty good crowd. Halvo was entertaining as always, he shut his mouth about two times. And Halvo and Justin had matching outfits. Nick Santino made fun of Halvo for falling of the stage, on the previous day of warped, which also happened to be the first day. It was funny. Always got to love that Halvo. On the stage I saw Jeffree Star and his friend Daniel watching. Overall it was very pleasant.

 

 

 

AFTER:

 

Met up with Dulce and Jessica.

We went to meet the band at their merch tent, their was a giant line and we never made it. But I did run into to TV/TV and had them sign one of the posters I stole off the fence. The venue guards were kicking us out, so we left.

 

Outside we were just pooped out and so we ended up just stopping at one of the cement blocks on the sidewalks. As it turns out we couldn’t have chose a better spot. A tour bus was in front of it, and out from it comes Jeffree Star. After much debate Amethyst and I rose to the occasion and took a picture with him and his kool aid shoes.

 

We also saw Kyle of Breathe Carolina and we said hi to him. Kyle and a bunch of other band members, I can’t really remember who, were all sitting on this wagon. A true bandwagon, joking and laughing around. Eventually David also got on that bandwagon, and later Sierra of Versa Emerge with her bike, but as they were taking off Sierra and her bike fell off. She had to bike after them. It was a site to see.

 

Jessica also got to practice her cart wheels.

 

We sat around for like twenty minutes waiting for Jessica’s dad who got very very lost to pick them up. Finally Amethyst and I left with her Uncle, who dropped me off.

 

At the end of the day I found myself pooped out and very sunburned all over my face (Dulce was laughing about that for the longest time, but I didn’t realize it’s extent and saw a mirror for the first time all day) and I had a giant v-neck tan.

 

10:18 pm August 4, 2009

 

 

 

 

It’s funny how sometimes you just don’t feel like writing. For example earlier today I was just so in the mood, but now I’m just dead about it. Doing it like it’s a chore and not enjoying it so I should probably quit now, but maybe get a little started.

 

I’m typing this all on my computer since I don’t have internet access at my dad’s on my laptop so I’ll post it later. Right now it is July 26, 2009 at 9:32 pm.

 

The next show in line is May’s Stay Awake Tour. May 30, 2009 with Brave citizen, eye Alaska, Playradioplay!, and Lydia.

 

And now I’m going to quit writing.

 

I am back It is July 28, 2009 and 10:30 pm. I am not even approximating, that is the actual time. Kind of a rare moment, I’m not going to give you the actual statistics but to get a 30 out of 60 is well 1/60 but then again if you did them all like that all the chances would be 1/60 but I mean to get like one ending in the tens and fives but now is not the time. No now I must write about the Stay Awake tour.

 

Going to this show was a bit chaotic. First people were going then they weren’t. In the end it Jessica and Me. Jessica’s school was having their finals the next week and ame… lives a gabillion miles away. Oh and Dijnee well she was having parent issues surrounding her bf. Well at that moment that’s a whole different story. I have no idea if I’ll ever get to that though. Considering how behind I am in everything. Maybe it’ll be a slight mention later on. Well I can’t predict the future, even though I claim to be psychic.

 

I was also unsure, well no I wasn’t, but if I had said yes, then I wouldn’t have gone. This show was on a Friday and Prom was on a Saturday. Guess who got asked. Me? Yes. Shocking. Very. Obviously I said no.

 

Charly’s a sophomore but he hangs out with mainly juniors and seniors and therefore was able to get tickets. He’s really nice and all, but I just I don’t think it’d be that fun. I’m not good at meeting people, and I just wasn’t into him like that. Me and social situations don’t go very well especially when I don’t have back-up. Charly isn’t exactly the most popular guy in school, he’s this slight overweight Mexican who I don’t know how he’s still in high school has kind of given up on himself. I always feel the need to help him, but he doesn’t care. At least that how he tries to come off as. I think he’s just too scared too try. He had a hard life and really is a nice genuine person. My friends teased me about it for a while, at least until the Steve thing. Oh god. But I honestly didn’t think it was so bad. Michelle and dem Mexicans. I turned him down, in the nicest way possible, I felt so so so bad. I told him I had made plans and was going to a concert. Which I did. In fact it was obviously this one. So what if it was the day before, my mom would never let me go to both.

 

Oh how he asked me is kind of important. It was so random. Extremely. I was walking to the bus stop, and I had just left Isabella at her apartment building when I heard someone calling my name. Yeah you know who. So I stop, and backtracked a little. He came up with a friend. He was panting, even though he hadn’t run that much, and I could tell he was nervous. I had this fearful feeling in me, by the way he was acting, I knew something was coming, and then all of a sudden he blurted it out. I mumbled for a while and finally he said I should let him know tomorrow. Omg the next day’s class was SO unbelievably awkward. I sit right next to him. I talked to him after class. It was all cool beans after that.

 

My mom brought us to this one.

 

As soon as I get into a venue I like to go bathroom. It’s like going to the bathroom in the middle of the movies, a hassle, and in this scenario my seat isn’t reserved. So I waited in line and Jessica and Tina stayed in the crowd. So in the bathroom there was this extremely short girl in front of me, a good head shorter then me, shorter then Tina and I go in there tiny bathroom and without thinking I mention how high up the paper towel dispenser is it really is high, high for me, and here this tiny girl is trying to grab it. I wish I hadn’t said anything because it was like I was acknowledging her shrunkeness. She gave me a weird look and said something along the lines of she’s used it. In the crowd she was right behind me. I felt so guilty for the longest time.

 

BRAVE CITIZENS:

First up. Didn’t know them much. They were pretty good. The lead singer looked like John Stamos. No Joke. I was thinking how he familiar he looked but when Jessica said the name it just clicked. Oh and Tina also came. Yes her first concert at the famous bottom of the hill.

 

 

EYE ALASKA:

I got really into Eye Alaska the week before and I’ve loved them ever since. There sound has a lot of jazz in it and reminds me of my mom. They’re pretty unique, at least in my opinion. I can’t think of his name, but the lead singer, who reminds me of a lizard, is about the best dancer ever. I don’t even know how to explain his moves. They were just so strange and wonderful all at once. Wonderful seems like a strange way to describe it. He also wore a backpack. The whole time. It was puzzling, but later he said it was so he would have everything and when he’s done he auctions it off for charity. Very sweet. They sang a bunch of their songs and some new ones off their album. It came out earlier this month but I have yet to buy it. I plan to get it at warped tour where I will be able to score it for $5. Yes! But meanwhile I’m very excited. In the beginning of their set they yelled to the crowd to gather around, get closer. Everyone scoots up about 5 feet and people are a lot more packed compared to the lose web around brave citizen and Tina, Tina, just keeps standing right where she is. Everyone has moved up and she’s out there. I have to grab her and pull her in. her face was so lost and confused. It was priceless. I wish I had a camera; well I did, so I wish I took a picture. Something the whole band had in common, which is something you don’t see often, is tales. Every member of the band had a tale, and normally I HATE HATE HATE THEM, but they pulled it off, and dare I say looked good. Never have hair tales been so hot.

 

 

(Stephanie is crying in the background)

 

PLAYRADIOPLAY!:

Where did all these tall people come from? That’s what I’d like to know. I come all the way across the bridge to see Danny Hunter play, someone I’ve wanted to see for a very long time, and tall people who could care less about him, get in my way. Blocking all views. I had to move in every position until I was able to get a peek, and I basically stood like that the whole time. Oh also something I should mention too apologize, kind of, to the short girl, and also for me, I asked this one guy in front if he could stay to the left so we could see better. And she gave me a huge smile for that. I redeemed myselfJ. Thank god. Ooooh a smiley popped up. I want to do that again. J L I don’t know any other ones that might work on word. So Danny Hunter was there with a drummer and from what I saw it was very enjoyable, I did mostly listening though, which was also very enjoyable. He was really into his music, and thank god he shaved the mustache of his. He played a bunch of his newer songs, like one or two off Texas, and then I believe compliment each other like colors. I am so excited for his new album, but this one is still a mystery. He keeps twittering about whether it should be a 2 disc or a 1 and then a bunch of stuff. After like a song Tina got tired and said she was going to wait by the side stage. When Danny Hunter was done he had a conversation with her! Danny Hunter got to meet Tina and I didn’t! Not fair! He commented on how young she was, and she said she was here with me, and then he said how it was good to start young. I should have at least given her something that she could get him to sign. Next time I will know better, if there is one. Especially considering what happened later. Oh Danny hunter got very very sweaty.

 

LYDIA:

I listened to them a little and knew a couple of songs, but after that performance I am going to be a life long fan. It was amazing, and I can relate to a lot of it. It was just so beautiful, and I can’t wait to see them again. The tall people that came out of nowhere were all there for Lydia. The guy had this unusual high feminine voice, which was amazing, and the girl sang for a couple. There was a man who looked homeless in the band, and then another who looked young and innocent. Man there was a crowd in that band. I still regret not buying their cd. They were all hanging around after the show, but my mind was preoccupied with other things, like Tina. To be all explained later. Lydia, the band, even brought their own lamp posts.

 

 

AFTER:

The show was over and I went to the merch tables where I got a prp! Shirt, the one I really wanted didn’t have my size, and also an Eye Alaska v-neck. We then looked for Tina, and we could not find that girl anywhere! I was freaking out, and we were going all around searching. My mom showed up and got frustrated. I would say she must be in the bathroom, which she was not. It was hectic and chaotic. FINALLY we found her sleeping on the sofas on the back, I have no idea how we missed her. I swear we looked there like five times, but she was safe! Man I got lectured for that later on. My mom’s going to hold that over me for a couple years.

 

We also met the whole band of Eye Alaska, I regret not taking a group picture with them. We had the chance. We had a nice conversation with Cameron about the band and coming up tour with the cab. This is also when we found out about the backpack.

 

 

Lydia members were everywhere but I was so flustered about Tina that I wasn’t thinking straight.

 

Danny Hunter disappeared immediately. We later learned he went to starbucks, where he found one open at that hour is a mystery to me, and came back like ten minutes after we left. UgH! Oh well. That’s life.

 

Just as a last note while I was typing this I actually had my playradioplay! shirt on. Just thought I should mention that and hello kitty pajama bottoms, neon pink nail polish, 2 friendship bracelets, and I guess now I’m going overboard.

 

 

 

I'm on a role... on to the next blog, i doubt I will finish this though because i'm leaving pretty soon to go to the city. We're spending the night there.

Ok so the TAKE ACTION TOUR. March 19, 2009. Featuring Anarbor, Every Avenue, Meg & Dia, Breathe Carolina, and Cute is What We Aim For.

(Tina just took a picture of me and I saw how disgusting I looked so now I'm going to jump in the shower)

30 minutes later and I am back. All refreshed. I spent like 10 of those minutes squeezing into my extreme skinnies. I love them. What a girl (or guy) has got to do to get into tight pants.

Anyway. I took the bus to juice's after school, and we hung out there until we left.

ANARBOR:
First one up. A relatively new band, they reminded me so much of a teenage band. They weren't bad nor were they anythng exceptional. The one guy in front of us (mike?) had a foot tattoo, which for some reason I really liked, and later made me go on a spur of googling foot tattoos and doodling on my feet, but anyway he referred to us as if we were in Sacramento. Not just once but TWICE. After being corrected by Slade too. Slade being the lead singer. They had a new album out and for some reason I remember they played the brightest green and they green strobe lights were on  like the whole time they played. The fillmore, which is where they played, really makes use of their strobe lights and fog machine, but that's another thing.

EVERY AVENUE:
Was next. They played a pretty good show. It seemed a little bit long though, maybe that's just my memory failing me. I like every avenue a lot, but I was just so excited for breathe carolina that I was kind of like c'mon finish up. At least I think I was, well I think i'm getting confused with meg & dia. I must be. I take all that back I remember now. Every Avenue wasn't getting too much love from the audience, more then Anarbor, but for the catchiness of their songs I really wanted to have fun and the crowd to be moving. Amethyst was next to me and we were singing along. Jessica was somewhere lost. Someone always gets seperated. It was just Amethyst, Jessica, and me.

MEG & DIA:
I don't know who was in charge of the fog machine, but it was out of control. I could barely see, and the pictures turned out terrible because of all the fog. We weren't permitted to use flash, the fillmore can be strange like that. The guards were surprisingly strict about it, usually they don't even care, but it was insane. They literally pounded the girl in front of me for using flash. the guy hit her on the head! Jeez intense. I was able to use it a few times, but not much. Meg & Dia were fun to watch at first, I was really anxious though. They played pretty much all new songs except for Roses and Monster. So it got a little slow. The music sounded good though, and it made me look forward to their new album, which i grew to enjoy a lot. I’m pretty sure it was during their set but a bunch of drunk girls were yelling out that they suck – it was rude and annoying. I also believe that their drunk mom came up trying to push her way to the front saying it was her daughter’s birthday, either that or her first show. No way did I or the people around me let her through.

BREATHE CAROLINA:
Amazing, unforgettable, incredible. It was a great performance. [continued on July 26, 2009] It reminded me so much of Dulce; so very rave like. Lights were everywhere and nowhere. Everyone was dancing – even those darn emo kids and it was just a lot of fun. You got so into it. It’s funny how this one has like the least writing but definitely one of the best, ever, so far. Hadn’t had fun like that for a long time.

 

 

CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR:

A classic. Well in my terms. They’re no Metallica, but I’ve never really listened to that band. In my own terms they are classic. They’re one of the first bands I was into, one of the first CDS I bought. Just something I’ll probably always love even if they put out terrible crap – well maybe not but I don’t think they will. Of course people think they already put out terrible crap. I know all their songs and I just get so into it so they’ll forever be an enjoyable band to see. Sometime during the show a group through a purple shirt on to the stage. It was a thermal and it looked like it had a picture of Fabio, or some other overly muscled man in a speedo. It was hilarious. Juice said it had shaant’s face on it but I thought it just said Shaant. They made a couple jokes about it and Shaant touched Dave’s mipple. Awkard. Later on Shaant gave a speech about jeff/ben and how he’s been in the band so long and jeff/ben czum played this song he wrote. Pretty amusing and pretty inappropriate.

 

  

 

It was all good though.

 

AFTER THE SHOW:

 I got in line to buy a BC shirt that I wanted and a Meg and dia poster but both were sold out. Funny thing is I ended up getting both later. Guess it was destiny.

On the way to the merch table Jessica saw the drummer of anarbor and chatted it up with for a little bit. I have no idea how she does these things – I mean how she remembers everyone in every band. It’s crazy. We also talked to the lead singer and he signed this random anarbor card and later my take action shirt.

 

 

We saw meg and I wanted to meet her and talk Korean to her but I don’t know what happened, and we never did.

 

Out in the hallway we saw the lead singer of Every Avenue. I don’t know why I can’t remember his name at the moment, but I don’t. Mike? Probably. Everyone is named Mike. He signed my shirt and Jessica’s cd and commented on how old the cd must have been.

 

Then we saw kyle of breathe Carolina. Jessica asked him a bunch of things about upcoming tours – warped tour. We complimented the show and he was really nice. Signings and pictures.

 

We were started to get kicked out of the venue, but on the way out saw Dave surrounded by girls, and possibly very drunk (maybe just buzzed). I pulled out this pamphlet I had in an hellogoodbye case with this picture of him when he was solo and young. He laughed and wrote geek on it.

 

Then we were pushed out.

We were hanging out on the sidewalk which was filled with teenagers and homeless. I remember this asian guy had on a shirt that said I’m 21 not 16. He and his friends were arguing about the average age in the show and how everyone thought he was 16. He asked me my age, which only proved his point.

 

Then David of breathe Carolina came out complaining about how the guards were asses for literally pushing the girls out the doors. He was kind of in a bad mood but we talked to kyle and david some more then left with Jessica’s mom.

 

 

We were out on the corner, no, not selling anything, when ben/jeff came out of the tour bus.

He has never been a very photogenic person. Ew I’m sweaty in all the pictures.

 

Juice had school tomorrow but amethyst and I didn’t and to Jessica’s annoyance we stayed up half the night talking about life and divorce.

 

Then we got up. Ate waffles. Jessica went to school. Amethyst and I went to the city. We hung out in Westfield. Completely exhausted from the night before. We were dead all day, but still had fun. Finally pooped out we caught the bart and the bus and headed to my house were shortly after ameth… was picked up and headed home. To a far far away place.

 

 

The end.

 

The ‘the end’ wasn’t really called for.

I am avoiding studying for finals to the point of me catching up on my show journal. I'm a little behind in it...three shows behind to be exact. Since so much time has passed the accuracy is pretty low, and i won't be able to have the same emotion or enthusiasm i might have had if this was written closer to the date...even with the same month as the show.

Well here it is.

Automatic Loveletter - March 07, 2009

The first show of the year (for me), and at bottom of the hill, FAMOUS BOTTOM OF THE HILL. It was my first time going there, and though I knew it was small I didn't nearly expect the venue to be THAT small. It was a pretty rad little place. They had kegs as bar stools, I ended up sitting on one for awhile, and I really don't think they're meant for sitting up because my ass really started to hurt.
Originally the show was supposed to consist of A Cursive Memory, Tickle Me PInk, and Automatic Loveletter. Tickle Me Pink's lead got sick though and had to return home - I actually really like them and was deeply saddened by this. A cursive memory i've already seen and am not a big fan of, but still was expecting to see them, and to my surprise when we reached the venue there was a sign on the door stating that they would not play that night (later that night thanks to Juju we found out they had a video shoot or something related to that to do). This was also Automatic Loveletter's first headlining tour - Almost Have A Tour Bus Tour. I got an awesome t-shirt.

Automatic Loveletter was not set to play until 10:30 pm and we so we sat on the left side of the stage, behind maybe what was equivelant to 2-3 rows of people. We were right next to the speaker, and ended up using it as a table for our sweaters and stuffffff.

(The show began at 8) and so we had a lot of time to spare until 10:30. This reminds me that I should mention the whole gathering was in celebration of Jessica's Sweet Sixteen. The Big 1-6! The whole gang was there - Juice (bday girl), ameth...., Dulce, Ly, and me! A rare thing to get us all together. Especially now it seems because Amethyst moved away. (woah i typed out that crazy name of her's). So we sat around looked at pictures - dulce had a video of the beautiful house (my uncle's talked about in an earlier blog) and she showed everyone. She also had pictures of the fall out boy game. They were pretty hilarious - i have yet to play the game. I wonder if you still can.... and we just talked and wasted time. Caught up with one another. Created Hoody pillows and checked out my enthralling leggings.

That was the most personal show I have ever been too, and possibly the most personal I will ever go too. It was not a crowded room, and we were up close. It was one band playing, and it was just amazing.

Once they had started playing the time passed so quickly, they did do an encore song. A song that I had been dying to here - Unhearted. I took a video with my one minute allowance camera but it doesn't have the best quality and you hear mostly the crowd's voices, which is definitley not pretty.

 
To Be Continued...



Now being continued on July 14th, 2009

I am continuing this now because I've just got returned from my Aruba trip and I really want to write about everything I've done there in as much detail as possible so that I am able to remember it for years to come. It's not like I'll forget it's just i won't remember the details.
I'm also not in the mood of going out of order. If i skip something it'll just be hectic so here it goes.

After the encore was over we went outside and met the whole band. First it was just the guys in the band. We had a group picture and one of them - was petting me. A little bit of an awkward moment. We chatted a bit, about what I'm not really sure anymore and then we waited to meet Juju. Oh i just had this flashback where we gave them the cds and shirts to sign and I had a sharpie and one older man like 40 commented on how prepared we were with that.


Juliet or Juju, which is also the name Amethyst has named her kitty, greeted us. She complimented Amethyst's pleather jacket, and amethyst gave her a bracelet. The two also talked about some show they liked. Then we chatted. Somebody - juice?- mentioned that my leg was broken, well injured, and she commented on my braveness and then there was an awkward hug moment. well awkward for me because every hug is awkward, but this one surprising. she just wrapped her arms around my neck.



Then we went to Jessica's. At Jessica's we blew up tons and tons of balloons, and they had drawings and we watched The House bunny. Then I think we went to sleep


We woke up and ate tons of waffles.
I skipped church class.
We watched An American Crime and some movie about funeral - i didn't get to finish watching this but it was good so i should find out the title. I'll have to ask amethyst. the movie source.

I hate feeling lonely.

Stupid anchor is just pulling me down.

I need to turn on some music.

Hello Rise Against.

Distract myself.

Actually that's why I'm doing this.
Otherwise i could browse online stores, yahoo answers, etc. But I'm not in the right frame of mind. This might be more productive. probably not.

Authors are pretty amazing. They convey the characters feelings in a way that you can understand. I don't think I could do that.

Well this week was mid-winter break. For the first part I went up to my Uncle's amazing house. Went with my friend Dulce. It was so cold up there! But beautiful. We left friday evening. Yay a five hour drive. We slept in the master bedroom (it's not the nicest - my mo mot dibs on that one) Tina slept on the floor...Okay i really do not feel like writing about this step by step. I don't believe my memory will serves me that well nor do i think that my fingers will.  So the weekend was full of farts (aka Tina) we actually convinced her to do it into the fire. I missed it though but apparently the fire grew bigger. Tina is so unhygenic it's nuts. We also 'hiked' by car. We went around the tiny tiny town. 300 people. People there are so friendly. It's strange. Eddie in the supermarket. The girl in the restaurant. Old man in the casino. The police in the casino. It's just too creepy. Then we also went to some areas where it was like the setting of a horror movie. For a while we thought were in Oregon. Dulce saw a confederation flag on some creepy bar, and man elks have white butts. Oh not to mention I was attacked by the ocean. I was just standing their, all unsuspecting and this wave comes out of no where! I got soaked up to the knees. Must I mention how amazingly cold it was! It was. So i walked around barefoot. My boots would not dry it was crazy. Dulce is also a very scary person to be with at night. Oh god. Overall it was fun, the ride back was a bit hectic though. Dulce got sick. Tina got sick the day after. Healthy me.

So that was that trip basically. Then my mom and I went to the snow! I was skiing in the same area as shaun white and a bunch of other super famous skiier/snowboarders. Amazing.

Then we went home. Now I'm here.

Oh I also have a new sister. I don't know if i ever mentioned it here. I hope I can go see her over spring break.
It was so weird when i found out. I was in the middle of stepping out of the shower when the electricity shut off and my phone rang...to receive the news.

I think i feel a little less lonely. Maybe motivated to go to the next stage. Do my homework? Nah. Waste time on the internet. Then fall asleep to gilmore girls. That sounds about right.

Can't wait for March. It should be an awesome month.

Oh I should mention a little about today. I woke up. Broke my mirror. 7 years of bad luck. Sat under a ladder...I don't even know how much bad luck that brings. But I figure they contradict each other and it's all good in the end. I mean the only reason for the bad luck is your belief that the bad luck will happen - placebo effect. Anyway 7 years from now if I look back and just remember the moment when I broke my mirror (no not with my face haha) I can then blame it. But hey pain only makes you stronger, that is if you can survive. ooooh. Suffering makes the good moments grrreeeat. That definitley belongs in a frosted flakes commercial. What ever happened to dear old tony the tiger. Never see him in tv. They either don't have enough money to afford the luxury of commericals or maybe they're doing so well they don't need it. In this economy who is actually doing all that great?
Oh yeah about 90% of the population will barely notice. Ugh... At the end of this year the unemployment rate may reach 9%. Scary. Especially with the chaos in my school.

It is pouring like crazy outside.

Hopefully the drought will seize to exist.

I cut my hair today :)

I saw this on facebook and i hate posting that stuff but i love doing it. so i'm going to do it here. It's HELLA long. It's so long i feel the need to use the word - hella. So you know thats got to be long.

The whole waiting thing is overrated and in the end it was just a waste of time. Oh well I tried. I know i just wrote an amazingly long blog but I started thinking about today and I'm in the writing element now (and that's rare) i realize there are a lot of other things I could do. For example I have a math quiz tomorrow and an unfinished english project due friday. I could/should be working on that but I'm not. I should be getting brownie points from this thing.

So I was reflecting on the day and I as just thinking about how i'm kind of an average unaverage american teenager. But aside from that drugs and stuff.
I've never been asked to take stuff but if I wanted too it wouldn't be very hard. If I was asked I am confident in myself to say no. I mean I am curious about it, but I don't feel like drugs need to be a part of my life. Maybe when I'm 85 ..if i make it to that age and i'm on the verge of life ending I will turn to drugs so I can experience a different way of life. See things a little differently. Expand my horizon (bring me the horizon haha).

Anyway aside from that this morning in psychology we were down in the library working on this research project. My group is doing the correlation between drugs and sports. A lot of stuff says no but are group was looking for things that say sports do influence people to do drugs. Not just performance enhancement ones but others. The girl in my group was saying how she would never have gotten in to the stuff if it wasn't for her team and their influece and it opened my eyes a little because i realized how true it was. So many athletes getting high and it's a new kind of pressure. I just found that very interesting. I started thinking about it and it's actually pretty true.

So I was supposed to be researching this abut i only found this one thing and we had library time but i got like no work done because i got distracted by conversation. My other partner kept talking about weed and stuff as if i had more of a clue about it. I don't know i guess people just assume I do stuff. I'm not sure if he was joking or not. I can never tell. I know charly jokes about it but not sure about this guy.  I don't know the whole thing was interesting though and i don't mind talking about it or anything i just find it amazing how many people are potheads. We also talked about the recession and rea monsters this cartoon was assumed to be done while someone was high but c'mon just look at it. haha you can only assume. A lot of amazing work has been done while under the influence: beatles, aldous huxley, quasi, alice in wonderland, etc.

This is all an open topic i guess.

I need to go do stuff now.

Just kind of relaxing - waiting and decided to write a blog while I wait.

Just as a note to self: Need to read book The Dumbest Generation
Mr. Wanlin was talking about it in History and it just seems kind of eye opening about the World we live in and are morals and priorities. Maybe if I remember to read it i could write a bit of my opinion about the book.

I'm not really sure what to write about it. I'm waiting for an idea to just pop in my mind. Man I should have read the blog prompt. haha.
It's the year of the ox...

I'm excitied for March - 2 shows to go to!

You know I never wrote about my sweet sixteen and I suppose that's a big birthday so I can give a little summary. but when something has happened so long ago you lose enthusiasm over it and it's more difficult to write about it - especially enthusiastically. Plus I'm  kind of in an indifferent mood right now - though I am listening to ciwwaf oldies haha. (in prepartion for the show)

Ok it was Decemeber 14. Sleepover. Stayed in Marriott in San Francisco. Attendees: Amethyst, Jessica, Dulce, Ly, Chong iin, Dijnee, and me.  We arrived in the city in the afternoon and set out to Westfield almost right away. Chong iin brough delicious brownies - which she claimed she baked (lies her mom so did it! - thank god too lol) and we hit up a bunch of stores. There was like a santa convention in the mall or something. There were santas everywhere! It was crazy. They we're all getting wasted though. Juice and I took a picture with one. (they weren't just in the mall - everywhere!) so we shopped for awhile and then we were about dying with hunger and so after a log debate we hit up Mel's Drive-Thru. I had French Toast (Yum! i love breakfast 24/7). Mel's was seriously awesome. They gave me a free t-shirt (although it was KIND OF huge) and a blue balloon and very chocolatey cake! Btw there was Santa's in mel's. haha. Oh and just had a momentary flashback to a great ice breaker from Dulce. It won't sound as good written down though.
Dulce was in a bar...or something like that and she overheard this other group of people. SOmeone was asking the people if they wanted to go to Ben and jerry's and after the people left they were like who's Benn and Jerry! (haha! it's an ice cream place just in case you're that out of it).
I remember i had to go bathroom and i stood there for like 10 minutes not realizing that i needed a key. and when dulce went we took her cameras and took a bunch of extremely random pictures - she was supposed to look back a later time and be like woah where did these come from but sadly we got caught. After mel's we wandered up that main street with forever 21, h and m ( i blanked on the street name) and it was about 10 pm so a lot of stores we're closing but we did manage to get into urban and forever 21. It was pretty cold and amethyst was freaking out about get a taxi back to the hotel.  We went up to union square were there was the ice skating rink. Ly and I sang christmas carols of christmas wrapping by the waitresses (lobe that song). We never made it ice skating. We tried or a taxi for a while but ended up walking back.
That night i'm not sure who possesed us. But there was sad attempts of hallway gymnastics lol. I got a couple videos. They're still on my phone at the moment but I will upload and post them here. And there was a few moments of almost sleep. Music was on the whole night. Jausting on beds. And being paranoid about the hobos outside. I swear are eyes were glued to the window for like 2 hrs (3 am to 5am) looking at the other office and coming up with creepy tales and identifying objects. Apparently my mom said we were very loud since she heard us all night long. we were in the room next to her. Oh i have to mention just to be annoyed at him and i know this will sounds really bratty but her bf was there and i didn't get a birthday gift at all none. and i made sure to remind him and ugh it's maddening. oki had my spoiled moment. then the next day. QUick run to the mall and back to the lovely bay area (...yay area). i had to go to confirmation class and later a 50th bday party where i had delicious filipino food (mmm kare kare!)

i actually just wrote an amazing amount of stuff. I'm still waiting. Man this is so slow. I'm kind of hungry. My mom bought 20 tubs of dreyer's ice cream. I'm not exxagerating.

I have a short story from the holidays. This is going to be a very long blog.
When I was in San Diego. It was a couple of days after my 16TH birthday (the real one lol) and we were in trader joes. So we get to the  counter and the guy at the register (propbably late 20's long blond hair.. possible smoker/pot head) and so it's our turn and the guy asks me. "How old are you? 4th grade? 6th? 7th?
I'm like really red at t\\\\nd so i barely croak out a "10"
the guy goes: "10 years old???"
me: "erm...10th grade"
I'm practically dying at this point. My dad repeated this story so much and kept laughing about it but then again i did too because in the end it was rather amusing.

So that was just stuff over the holidays. Man I love christmas so much.

Right now I'm in school. It's pretty good. Thank god finals are over! Omg I almost got a 4.0 ...chemistry ruined it though. Darn chemistry.
Repression is still occuring and the news just becomes more depressing every day. People with families losing their jobs. Unable to take care of their families.
Antonio and I were having one of our pe political discussions and we were talking about how kids in our school are so luckie. It's a really great school and this recession is barely going to affect us. 
Kids are complaining about losing ap class like AP french and Ap Spanish...must i mention there's like a total of 20 kids in that class when teachers in our school are losing their jobs! Including my chemistry teacher because of the budget cuts. People with families and bills! They will probably not be able to find new jobs and these people are complaining about their ap classes which btw no one takes (there's a reason they will be dropped!)
Ugh ok waiting period is over so i'm done

I know I haven't written much and when I do I start of with so much momentum and then just get lazy sometimes not even finishing it (for example my ciwwaffles show posting...yupp still have not finished it).

 

So i know it's the New Year. It's been the New Year for awhile actually and i've been meaning to make a bunch of postings about the last year (nothing much Just lists) so here's the:

Bands I Saw in 2008:
+ Flight to Athena ( July 2008, San Diego Fair)
+ Set your goals (march 30, fillmore)
+ Metro Station (march 30, fillmore)
+ A Cursive Memory (march 30, Fillmore)
+ Saves the Day (march 30, Fillmore)
+ Powerspace (July, Soma)
+ Ace Enders (July, Soma)
+ Danger Radio (July, Soma)
+ Cute Is What We Aim For (2x's: July, Soma; November, Grand Regency)
+The Academy Is... (Aug, Warped Tour)
+ We the Kings (a little...Aug, Warped Tour)
+ Mayday Parade (Aug, Warped Tour)
+ Angels and Airwaves (a little...Aug, Warped Tour)
+ All Time Low (a little...Aug, Warped Tour)
+ Forever the Sickest Kids (2x's: Aug, Warped Tour; October, Fillmore)
+Cobra Starship (2x's: Aug, Warped Tour; Oct Fillmore)
+ Hit the Lights (Oct, Fillmore)
+ Sing It Loud (Oct, Fillmore)
+ A Rocket to the Moon (Nov, Grand Regency)
+ Automatic Loveletter (Nov, Grand Regency)
+ Secondhand Serenade (Nov, Grand Regency)


TOP  OF 2008 (all around)
(in my view and more or less...i'm not counting...and in no apparent order)
+ Politics
+ Hillary Clinton
+ OBAMA (my mama, barakandroll, etc)
+ Being Green
+ Bronx Mowgli (pete jr)
+ HANNAH MONTANA/MILEY CYRUS (shaaaaa)
+ Being Green
+ Bye TRL (does anyone actually miss it?)
+ The Dark Knight (Heath Ledger's death)
+ Katy Perry
+ Economy Recession
+ Bank bailout
+ Automobile industry spiraling downwards
+ Foreclosures Galore
+ That's what she said
+ TWILIGHT
+ Smosh


Top __ of 2008 (On a More Personal Level):
+ Moving At leat the beginning)
+ My first show (woah!, metro station etc)
+ Dave Says...
+ Pete (always and forever)
+ Chloe and the rest of amethyst's insane cats
+ Sweet 16!
+ Malaysia and Philippines
+ That's what William didn't say/ That's what the microwave said
+ The killers say bye to moostacios and hello to feathered shoulderpads (are you human?)
+  The year paramore becamoe annoying?

Top Songs of 2008 (only one per band) (My favorites and also some of the world's favorites)
+ 70's Song - The Cab
+ Navigate Me - CIWWAF
+ About a girl - the academy is...
+ I kissed a girl - Katy Perry
+ I'm not going to teach your boyfriend how to dance - Black Kids
+ Shake It - Metro Station
+ I'm a Pirate, You're a princess - Playradioplay!
+ Catastrophe - Forever the Sickest Kids
+ The First Time - Family Force 5
+ Nine in the Afternoon - Panic! At the Disco
+ I'd hate to be you when people find out who this song's about - mayday parade
+ I don't care - Fall Out Boy
+ Dance Party Anthem - Good Charlotte
+ 7 things - Miley Cyrus
+ You Left Me - The Maine
+ Typical - Tickle Me Pink
+ Don't trust me - 30h!3
+  Sway Sway Baby
+ Bubbly - Colbie Cailat
+ Viva La Vida - Coldplay
+ Human - The Killers
+ Paper Planes - MIA
+ Time to Pretend - MGMT


Links:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2008
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=2008
http://www.fredflare.com/diary/top50_2008.php

I woke up this morning and felt surprisingly healthy! After two nights of freaking about having to cancel my sixteen candles party due to illness I am healthy! I don't want to get in to the details of my state but involved headaches, throwing up, temperature changes, etc. Horrible.

Ok so today I went to school. Chemistry was fine. I don't think I've had a class where Mr. Mcnally doesn't make us laugh. Then PE. Ew pe. Today we went to the middle school to run the mile on the new track. blah blah blah. that stuff is unimportant. Then we returned to the gym and played some basketball. I was on a side court and just kind of wasting time with shooting and standing around on the court when out of nowhere this basketball comes flying really fast. It hits my nose and keeps going with full speed. It seriously surprised me. The ball came out of nowhere. I was just kind of like "did that just hit me?'/ My nose didn't even hurt. But like 10 seconds later blood just comes gushing out. And it doesn't stop! So i ended up in the bathroom and apparently Neil, was the guy who threw the basketball. He kept apologizing! Like all day! In the halls, in the girls bathroom (kind of), in later classes. It was nice but after a while a little bit annoying. Everytime he apologized people were like what happened! and i had to explain what happened all over again. ugh. So my nose bled through the rest of the class. the only upside no more basketball. Maybe I can fake having a fear of basketballs in the next class so i don't have to participate. hmmm.... Also I ran into Marlene in the bathroom. Omg this means i will never hear the end of it.

So that was Pe. then History. Oh yeah it was a great day. In history Charlie (the asian) referred to me as fat. I didn't take it to heart b/c I know I'm not and I know he didn't really mean it but he said it when the whole class was silent so everyone kind of looked over at me and was like hmmmm...that's messed up charlie. and then squidward andrew got moved behind me. Omg he is annoying. He didn't stop tapping me, pushing my chair, etc. agh. and apparently i look like a zombie in a video game.

so yeah the rest of the day just passed. pretty much. I must do challenge day next year!

Ok so I wanted to go back a month ago and give a small summary on turkey day! Turkey day we ate at the Franciscan with My mom and Mike. The food was pretty good. Really filling. it was right on the ocean in the wharf. After dinner everyone was super stuffed so we decided to go for a walk. We ended up touring the area like tourists. Most of the shops were closing or closed. We ended up in Buena Vista the famous irish bar in ghiradelli square. I had delicious hot chocolate. We shared a table with some people visiting from Iowa. They were friendly and the conversation was pretty interesting for a while but then I kinda phased out and out of no where i see SANTA! Yes! Santa outside the window. I yell out "santa!' a couple of times until the people at the table notice. Santa btw is a chubby hobo with a white beard, red shirt, and santa hat. Actually he seriously looked like a santa. Apparently he heard me through the glass and he would not leave! He started playing peek-a-boo and it was pretty crazy. After like 10 min of pretending he was invisible he wandered away.
Eventually we left the bar and outside this guy approached Mike. The guy''s all like i bet you if you give me $2 I'll do 100 pushups - 100 one handed push ups! i was actually kind of interested lol and apparently so was Mike. The guy did it ! I love hobos in san francisco. We actually had to make him stop around 80. and then thanksgiving went on...we ended it with a movie...and the next day was ciwwaffles!

I'll talk a little of my upcoming birthday. So i'm having a last minute party. the thirteenth. Sleepover in marriot sf.. hang around union square and ice skate. Stay in hotel room all night. Going to be awesome. First time cougars meet screamies (sj kiddies). So hope it all goes amazing well. Omg i'm old!!! I'll try an dto remember t write a blog about it laters.

I know I have a lot of better things that I could do right now. But I feel sick and this seems like something you could do without thought and it's still amusing:
I better get some awkward song titles!
Turning on my ipod...
shuffling songs...

Going to this show has to be the most confusing non-confusing thing ever.
I asked my mom and of UPMOST SURPRISE she said she could take us...this is aprox a week before the show.
During this week so many people said they could go, couldn't go, and could go again. In fact I had no idea who was going until the night before.
Jessica was trying to do the teenager thing and sneak-out but she's a good person so she told her parents and for some reason they still let her. Parents can be so surprising sometimes.
Amethyst could go then plans came up and then she couldn't go, but at last minute lik 10pm the night before she texted and wallah we could. Then there's all those cougars who could and couldn't go.

So at around 1-2pm they arrive at my house...and malwart. We buy the tickets! Yes the same day. You can just see how well planned this show outing was. and at around 4 pm my mom brings us to the BART station and we find are way to the city. Amethyst is seriously freaking out because sf at night can be scary.

We get to the city and we stand around aimlessly for a little bit trying to understand a map. Eventually one of us hails a cab to get to the Grand Ballroom.

We get in line and wait for a little bit. We look around to spot band people. No shaant yet.

 

 

A ROCKET TO THE MOON:
First up. They sing Dakota last ( my favorite). Pretty awesome. Jessica and I get seperated from Amethyst and omg there's this crazy butch in front of us.

(Being continued on 1/19/08)

The butch lady brought her very pregnant wife to the front..close to the barricades. How stupid is that! She threatens us that she's going to beat the crap out of anyone who bumps into her very pregnant wife. Guess who's right behind her....me. Thank god I'm short. It's so much easier to duck when you're that much closer to the ground [nervous...lol].

Thankfully we eventually move away... I'm not sure when we move away but we do....

Automatic Loveletter:
Juju simms voice is amazing. Her brother (spaced on his name)(but just looked it up...it's Tommy
[ http://www.myspace.com/automaticloveletter] had a naked barbie taped on his guitar. He got nerves or was just drunk after the first song and upchucked on the side of the stage. I remember she did a solo. WHich I videotaped and it was amazing. My lovely phone and such awesome video quality skills.

 

CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR:

SECONDHAND SERENADE:

AFTERSHOW:
 

 

Overall, I was very disappointed in the movie.  I wasn't expecting the movie to be as good as the book at all, but at the same time I wasn't expecting a horrible movie. 

- It was way to fast paced ( i know that it had a lot to cover, but it didn't set the scene) 
- I thought the director could be better
-The scenes weren't emotional enough ( i didn't feel edward and bella's love...it didn't give me butterflies lol). Them together was just very awkward.
- Kristen Stewart, seemed to me like the [almost] perfect person to play Bella. But in the end I think she kind of brought down the movie. her acting skills weren't very good (at least in my opinion).
- Sometimes the camera angles were just so strange. It gave me a headache at some moments. Because the camera just kept swirling.
- The glittering skin under the sun was just really strange ( i know they had a low budget, but it was just really weird, and they put a lot of emphasis on it)
- I liked the action scenes. My favorite would be the baseball field.
- I did not think I would like the actors for the Cullen family but I was pleasently surprised. They fit their characters nicely. They played their roles (unlike Bella)
Maybe this is just me. What did you think of it?

especially like the baseball scene too. and the cat money thing was hilarious.
omg i love jasper(in the movie)!
i do think kristen did bring down the whole movie. she looks perfect as bella but her acting skills...

Today was a day, like any other.

I honestly didn't mean to start it off like a Jack Mannequin's song but i couldn't help it.
Anyways just decided to give a summary of my day.

So this morning I took the bus to school and everything's normal except my ipod is dead and I can't listen to it so that makes me sad but otherwise it's all cool until...

this blind woman who i believe is filipino because she keeps talking about this restaurant manila bay and because she looks it, anyway that' unimportant what is important is the man who gets on with her. He is not blind, at least he doesn't have a stick. They sit perpendicular to me.   So the guy is basically talking about how she's improvong and then he asks her to kiss him....and they smooch a little. Then my mind starts to wander. Normally I wouldn't be watching people so closely but I was without my ipod and I was awake and had nothing to do. But anyways my mind wanders and I start to wonder if the ideal player would pick-up blind people. I mean they're blind so... Like this guy could be chilling with all these blind women, a lot of them aren't even bad looking and this guy is pretty ugly but they can't tell! and he can leave clues all over! He's nice to them, they're a minority. It seems so perfect! but honestly really bad. Okay i need to get back on topic.
This guy gets on and he's all normal but then he starts to moan, disturbing moans (not sexual). People are starting to stare at him. Then he takes off his shirt, he has a wife beater underneath and he starts breathing into his shirt. A few minutes later he starts gagging. it's so disgusting. Everytime i start to turn away. People move away from him. For some reason I don't.
I'm not looking at him anymore but suddenly I smell it. The stench of upchuck is just horrible. I didn't hear anything but I know it happened. I throw a quick glance and i see him clutching his shirt covered in vomit. It's disgusting.
Thankfully a few stops later I get off the bus in a rush.

So that was my bus ride to school. Another story to add to my pile of bus stories. I must remind myself to share this one with Antonio, my bus story sharing person.

So chem. We're doing this project about William Prout. Basically he studied urine and believed everything had to do with hydrogen. We're giving a report. I don't really know my partners all that well. They're convinced they want to do a puppet show but I don't see how it relates. I try to explain but I guess i'm like Piggy (lord of  the flies) and my message fails to be heard. Anyway it was an awkward moment but what is most memorable is one of the guys in my group asks me why i stopped talking. I didn't stop talking! But i guess i seem like an emo loner to him. I never though i seemed that way until this girl ava asked my friend who was her first friend here and she said me and ava was like " That emo girl!"

Moving on.... but i'm not . and i wore pink ruffles today. I'm almost starting to understand amethyst's point of view about it lol.


So then PE...ew mile.

Ok and History. It starts off with some crazy story about the kid next to me who was on speed and three other nameless drugs all weekend and his friend who almost has alcohol poisoning and how he was really scared. I foundsomething in this conversation ironic. This kid Jay Jayt gave him the stuff and when he offers him a smoke three drugs later he's all like "no man I don't smoke, it's unhealthy". I almost want to laugh at him but I keep quiet. I never really know how to react with conversations like thse. hadI really enjoy my history teacher. We talk a lot about how history repeats itself and modern times. We discuss prop 8 and the supreme court - the topic of homosexual marriage, heterosexual marriage, and religion.  Then the topic takes a depressing turn. we once again talk about the economy. We talk about past depressions and what's ahead for us. It's not looking good though. In fact it's really scary. He said something that I really felt was very clever and has to do with the common saying about how just look for the light. The light at teh end of the tunnel will get you through. Stuff like that. So my teacher goes and says, " That light you see, that's a train coming at you and your on the tracks." This just really made me cringe. It showed me how hope was lost and for this period I really did lose hope in my country. We talked about california possibly having to file for bankrupcy and general motors possibly too. This is 300,000 more jobs lost. How war brings us out of depression since it provides jobs but we should not turn to this. But i started thinking and isn't war one of the things that puts us in debt, is it the cause of are depression?
This also reminded me of the genocide going on in Darfur.
So anyways college was also discussed. CSU had its first cut ever. People with a B average would no longer be automatically accepted because there were large education budget cuts. It will be harder to get in schools. The price will go up.
And really even if you do go to college, you get out and there's no jobs available. There goes my whole future.

Other stuff happened but I've written a lot already and I do need to start my homework. The last paragraph brought up memories and now I'm just saddened by what is to come. I don't think a depression is an avoidable option at this moment. Good luck Obama.